Hi! It has been a really long time since I blogged and well, I’m on my last year in college now.. hopefully! Juggling 27-30 units of acads, org duties, thesis, and OJT come 2nd sem.. i hope I won’t lose my sanity! Hahaha anyway, I need help. If you are my FB friend, pls dont hesitate to message me your advice.
You see, it has been my LONG-TIME dream of becoming a pediatrician and I’ve been picturing myself as a Med student ever since I knew about it but of course, as I grew older, I became more aware of my family’s situation, most especially in terms of our finances.
I am the eldest among the 3 children. My sister’s studying in DLS-CSB and is taking up BS-HRIM and her tuition is really expensive, actually, way more expensive than mine :p My younger brother is in high school and so, ever since I realized the need of my family for another financial provider, I thought of considering not getting into Med School anymore and work after graduation bec my mom’s the only one who’s working for us. I feel embarrassed because I know that instead of me sharing with the bills at home, I’d still be relying on allowance and let us not forget the HUGE AMOUNT OF TUITION for med schools.
If I work right away, I’d share the house expenses (?) with my mom and soon, I could even send my brother to school :) But the thing is, I’m not sure if I can picture myself working in an office. I don’t like a work that eventually feels like a routine.. I can tell, I’ve seen my mom’s work for 21 yrs now.
But if I don’t become an MD, I know that I’ll forever be frustrated. I know that it’ll take a loooong time before I could start “earning” in my dream profession and I’d love to give back to my parents, most esp my mom, asap.
My friends advice me to work first and then probably send myself to med school but I don’t prefer that idea because 1, I’m already 2 yrs delayed in college, and 2, I might lose that INTENSE drive and passion to pursue med once I start earning my own money.
Well, I know I said a lot but I hope you’re coming across my point. And it’s my last year in college so, I’m really in a state of internal panic right now. So, what do you think should I do?